here's my theory of the two rats, i just made it up.
i think there are two rats to be fed. one rat is the actual "movement on rock" rat, the purist. it is easily satisfied when it has been starved, hence a short punterish potter in bullock leaving me all lyrically waxing up in here. however for me it is rarely starved and the fact that it's so easily satisfied means without other motivation it is quickly numbed. two return trips to bullock this week would inevitably bore me.
the other rat is the "challenge" rat. without a sense of progression and challenge i would not have any motivation to go back again and again to the same places, which one realistically has to do.
very rarely do they operate independently, last night it was all about the purist rat, some wet bored shitty nights in the coop it could only ever be about improvement, but generally they act in symbiosis.
grade whoring is when the challenge rat has gone deviant. my rats are healthy.
i'm calling ped's clause on this post which entitles me to come back and change/burn it as i see fit.
What the he'll are you talking about fool.
ReplyDeleteIt's simples yesterday you had a no pressure punt and enjoyed it but you are struggleing find a project long term goal so have gone a little mental. Barry has a lovely project in the cave!